My life story if you will...

I have just woken up from many years of canabis use! I did not see a problem with this drug for many years but almost a year ago I woke up and snapped out of it only to realise that I had wasted most of my years in a paranoid fog leaving nothing to show for my years gone past apart from an overwhelming sense of under achievement and a anxiety and depression related medical condition that causes difficulty with swallowing food.

During my years in the paranoid fog I job hopped and have little to no qualifications to compliment my bleek CV. I made some stupid decisions in my green bubble including applying for the job I currently hold now. I read the job description of an exciting opportunity as the coordinator of a large office move although I have ended up working on a make shift reception in a temporary building where I am treated like something you would scrape off your shoe day in and day out. My daily duties are completely different to what I applied for and to add insult to injury... I NEVER apply for reception positions because I HATE that type of trample on you role! Being an hour drive away from home and in a completely different city (which I didn't mind when I thought I was being promoted) just adds to my total and utter dispair!

I feel trapped. I am applying for positions which I have all the experience for but don't seem to be able to get through the sift to interview stage! I have researched application techniques and got invaluable advice from a few people who work in the recruitment industry but still with no avail! What am I doing wrong!!! Is this my punishment for my previous substance mis-use?

I am currently taking a level 2 and level 3 qualification but don't feel like I can take it anymore... All I want is a bottom rung paper pushing position in a reputable company where they invest in their employees.

Anyone else having a similar problem or is it just me?